I’ve fallen many times in my life. Big life changes that have literally knocked me on my knees and I never knew what it felt like to stand up, find my voice and move forward.
The biggest blow to my spirit has knocked the breath out of me. It has left me so drained, physically weak, dependent on drugs to help me cope. It has made me feel embarrassed for not speaking up. But little by little, second by second, minute by minute, day by day, I have begun to stand up and find my voice.
I’m reminded of when Christ fell so many times while carrying His cross and He stood back up, every time. And little by little He made His way to that hill to sacrifice His life for our sins.
Far from being like Christ, I too, keep getting back up. But, what is my sacrifice? What will my struggle accomplish and will it be for the glory of God, Our Father? I can only pray and meditate and offer my all, to know that the Holy Spirit will work within me.
Forgiveness seems so far away, but the Lord has a plan – to prosper us!!! One step at a time; in God’s time.
I use my words with care, praying not to interrupt God’s will. Intentionally making room for God to work in me. The difficult part is opening my heart to God’s will. But I know in good time (God’s time), I will see God’s plan play through. And it will be then that peace will be my friend and I will be able to finally rest in knowing I stood up, used my voice, and did my best!